PLEASE....

I saw something on the newspapers today which got me raging in fire. Our beloved Deputy Prime Minister said that it is our goal to have zero death toll for our national service. That is a good news... wait a minute... u mean there is death in our national service??? U kidding me?? i mean, where are we sending our boys and girls? gulf war? Firstly, there should not even be any death at all for our national service. What went wrong here? bad food? unsafe environment? or simple just bad management??

I am not trying to be anti-govt here. But we are talking someone's son, someone's daughter, someone's brother, someone's sister!so the duty of care should be above and beyond. I feel so sick to read any news abt a child loosing his life during national service. And when i thought about my 18 year old brother... it got me even more sick to my stomach!

Please... i pledge our govt. I mean, i do agree with national service concept. But please, exercise it with caution, extreme caution. Every little life we loose along the way, is a regret that we can never remedy. Please...

Memory

Sex and the city

I remember the scene where Carrie was walking the dog with Aidan. It was a quite night scene in New York. Carrie was once, very dress down, a tube and short. I love that scene. It was the sweetest. Although in the end, she chose Mr. Big, but that moment will be remembered forever.


Gray’s Anatomy

When Bruke proposed to Christina, there is only person she wants to tell it to first, Meredith, but she can’t seem to find her. Then finally, she found her, lying on the bed, just came back from death. And she told her. I cried all night for that scene.

Friends

Phoebe never owns a bicycle ever in her life. But when she was young, her neighbor had the nicest bike. It was pink in colour, with a white wicker basket in front, which had little colorful daisy on it. Ross heard about the story and got her the exact same bike. That moment, I understand what good friends are made off.


7th Heaven

The Camden family took in Lucy’s friend where come from a trouble family, where no one at the family ever say love. Matt heard about it and turn to Lucy and said: “ You know I love you right.”. In return, Lucy said “ Ya, I know. I love you too.” Family, you fight, you scream, you yell, but you can’t not love them.


House

The scene where Dr. House strip down to his pant and showed his scared leg to Dr. Cuddy, sometime, the strongest are the weakest.

Happy Birthday

Today is my dad's birthday. If he is still around, he will be 57 years old. I miss him.

I think about him almost everyday. But somehow, the tears don't drop so often, his face fade a little, the word 'ah pa' is more foreign a little. It scares me sometime.I rather go through the pain of losing him every single day then forget any bits of him. Time don't seems to give me such luxury. Some how over time, whether you want it or not, you move on, even just a little. And i fear that, one day, i will forget, forget the way he smile, the way frown, the he held my hand. I fear i will forget his face... i am terrified.

I always think about those that come and gone too soon.

My primary school mate. She had a beautiful name. Barely made it to 14, a accident took her life away.

My little niece, was only 3 years old when God took her back, guess that God needed an extra angel.

MY dearest uncle, who spend his whole life battling against drug addiction. Finally he succeeded but life didn't gave him a second chance. I remember that Sunday afternoon, where he held and my hand and bought me my first ' apam balik'. I don't eat it any more, just taste too bad...

My loving aunt. What a great person her was, caring, talented and extremely nice. Yet, we loose her too soon. I never forget that evening that we got the news, its the first i saw my dad cry...

My Dad's best friend who passed away just a year before my dad. They were best friend. i think they still are...

Great people which we all loose too soon too fast...

Sometime i glad that there is Heaven, or at least i want to believe so... I need to know that this is not it, that this is not the end. I need to know that one day, i will see you again, i will see the warm smile again, when you greet me with open arm.
It is also my biggest fear that Heaven don't exist, and this is all we have. How will anyone ever go on.... I do not know.

Happy Birthday, ah pa. Miss you.

BORED

I need a date. Take me out. No commitment required.

Tania says ... part 1

People that knows me, knows about my obsession with fashion. I study, i preach, I live and i wear fashion. Of coz, fashion to me used to be about what is in, what is out. But now, i know fashion is about you and you only. fashion is about what you wear, not what wear you. Its about how it represent you, not about what you represent. Fashion is you. Below will be some of my tips on fashion, from colour, to fabric, to clothes, to shoes, to accessories... Everything i know, i tell... not to tell you what to wear, but to help u to find your own style :) like what coco chanel said, 'in order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different'

Ok.. let's get to business... Let's do colours first.

1. Its black, its white...

Ok, black and white, both being the basic colour where you just cant go wrong, or so you thought? The things is there is nothing wrong in wearing an all black or an all white assemble, provided you accessorises it properly. I mean you don't want to look like you are attending someones funeral or a nurse from the eighties... Be bold, if you are wearing an all black cocktail dress, match it with a coloured shoe, be it red, yellow or even green! its ok, as long as that is the only other colour u have. the rule is, never have more then 3 colours in one assemble!!.

All white is fine too for the ladies. I mean you can wear an all white suite provided you wear a coloured shirt inside. White is the best colour to match with almost anything. Even better then black! Oh ya, try not to mix black with grey. It not to say that its wrong, but it just a bit too dull, especially if you have a darker skin tone.

Another thing to note that, a black coloured fabric tends to look more 'expensive' then white ones. I mean, you can buy a black shirt for 29.90 yet pull its off as 299.99, but its almost impossible to do that with white shirt. Therefore, i will invest in a more expensive white cloth, as it is worth it anyway. And maybe can go a bit more budget with black ones :)

By the way, black does not necessary make you look slimmer, but a right cut will! FYI, people with a darker skin tone looks the best with white :)

I wont talk to much here about black and white as i will elaborate more later in the "white shirt" and "little black dress" topic later on. Just remember if nothing else match, just go black!!!

2. the RED faces



Red. Somehow it reminds of a guilty pleasure, a sinful right... I adore red and i think only a true woman can bring out the passion and life of the colour red. Therefore, red is a tricky colour to wear, u need to do it just right! The truth is red doesn't go well with most of the colours, except your basic black, white and maybe beige.

And as you can see from above, pink is part of red too. But i think i shall blog about pink separately... let's talk about a red shirt, a red shirt is best to go with a black skirt. You just cant go wrong with that. And when u are wearing something as bold as red, you have to minimize on the accessories and only wear one tone colour accessories. preferably something more basic, like black or even gold.

The thing with red is, you have to find one shade that fit your skin tone, if you are fair, or even slightly tanned, be bold and go with really striking chili red. It will look fabulous! but if you are more tanned and even darker skin tone, a more subtle red will suit you better. But again, nothing to stop you from trying a red hot dress... just remember the essential rule, keep it simple!

I mean, who can forget Nicole Kidman in the beautiful red number by Balenciaga in 2007 Academy Awards. Its bold and its simple. Its Perfect!



If you wearing an all red dress, make sure that is all you wear. No accessories needed, and if u absolutely have to, then the least the better! and Please... PLEASE dont paired it with a red shoe.. it just wrong! go with a gold stripe shoe instead. It will look a million bucks!

And although red and pink is the same categories, but never mixed them together. its just so wrong!

3. Purple rain.. oh.. purple rain...



Purple is another colour that i adore... but also, it is one the hardest colour to match. It almost goes with nothing!! almost :p Of coz, u can always mixed it with white or black. But somehow i dont feel like it brings out the beautiful shade of purple. This is the problem you face with spectral colours, they are must harder to match, and purple is not even spectral colour, its extraspectral colors, which only means that it is much harder to match.



Then i realize, there is another colour that will do the job, baby blue, a very light, almost pale blue. Purple being the spectral colour of red and blue, pairing it with a shade of light blue can really bring out the tone of purple. But of coz, this only applicable to darker shade of purple. If you talking about a much lighter shade of purple, then you can try to pair it up with a really dark shade of blue.

Of coz, in purple itself, we have violet, plum and others. Violet its a beautiful colour, especially when its on satin or silk.. but again, a very tricky colour to match. My advise? back to basic. But some how, i do think that Violet goes better with white rather then black... And Violet also goes better with silver rather then gold! ;)



Another about purple is that, you can match the shade, like you can wear a dark purple cardigan over a violet dress, provided that there is no print on the dress.



Ok... we covered 3 colours now... next we will back to talk about more primary colours then spectral colours. we talk about blue, yellow and green ( although green is actually spectral :p).

FYI

its just one of those days that u know its not gonna be great.

Woke up to a massive headache, caused by the lack of sleep last night. Only got back from JB at about 1 am!! with the train delay and all..no more train ride for me!!

Wanted to post some pics that i took from the train station whit my phone, but realize that my blue tooth device on my laptop is not functioning, argh!!!

Took a panadol today:( ya ya.. i know.. i been clean for so long! haven't take panadol for like a month!! sigh... but really cant stand it today... i just got to have it! once an addict, always an addict!

Got a rejection letter from Allen gledhill. They said something along the line that there is no position suitable for me.. blah blah blah.. just tell me u don't want me :(, i can handle the truth! ok, i can't... still... i knew it wasnt my day..

anyway, i do have something interesting that i'm going to blog about soon... its about my passion, gonna share my years of experience that... hehe... suspense suspense ( 都不知在暗爽些什么!)dunno mandarin?? too bad :p

just hope the day will get better soon la.. if not, just stay this way... all i want to do is to go home and lay down and roll on my bed...

oh ya, fyi... i do sorry that i didn't get to see u, u know i want to see u..

Sorry is the hardest word???

I think i am lucky. I do take things for granted sometime and yet i am given second chance, third chance, fourth chance. And i know, i dont deserve it. I am lucky. I want to say thanks... but i dunno how, and we thought that saying sorry was the hardest word, yet saying thanks when u dont deserve the grace, its even harder. BUT am gonna say thank you. Thanks for the second chance. Thank You. I wont promise i will never fail you again, but u bet, i will try all that i have to never disappoint you...

Will you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you happy now...

i know that i haven't been happy lately. I try to though. sometimes even too hard... but it does not seem to be a task, not that you try hard enough, you will get.

I been thinking, seriously, being 27 years old, what have i done? this 27 years?? Do i even have something to be so proud of that i can brag about it. Doesn't seem so. I don't have an outstanding career, I don't have money, nor i have fame, I don't have someone to call my own. I do feel like i fail... in what? my life exam? Shouldn't there be a check list for all of us on things that we should achieve by certain age?? Would it make it easier??

What defines me? What is Tania? Am i define by my job? my clothes? my shoes? my bank account? What is me? How does this world sees me? what is my role? and when one day i die, when someone read a eulogy for me, what am i to them? If God ask me, what you done? Would i say the same thing to him also, What have i done??

Nothing. At this point of time, i feel like i have nothing to say. SILENT.

I do think that what will the world be without me? of coz, am not thinking of killing myself (pls........) Just evaluating, If there were never a Tania, will the world been a better place, or would it be worst off....What or Who did i ever contribute to, that makes me irreplaceable? i Dunno... ambitious? maybe... But sometime i just feel like, in life, it gotta be just more then this, beyond the fancy car, the luxury house, the platinum card... there gotta be more then this...

What is it then? i dunno... i am still looking... maybe i should get back to simple life, simple things, simple thinking... to find a reason, a simple life with a simple purpose... maybe i dont need to achieve something... maybe when God ask me, " what have you done?" i said "i made myself happy." Maybe its good enough...

给 fei yong...

美人魚 - 徐若瑄

我是一條沒有人養的魚　
揹著自由面無表情
彩色眼睛　受傷的心　
只有看到黑白的你

我像一條沒有人養的魚　
我的悲傷你不在意
說過的話　飄過臉頰　
我無法揮去一切重新再來

＊捨不得我為什麼說再見
　能不能收回我說的每一句話
　捨不得我為什麼不忘記
　做一條快樂美人魚

(Rap)
你的溫柔總是來了又去　
我的孤單（不稀罕同情）
你的電話　忍住不打　
我不想變成習慣　等你回來
Repeat ＊, ＊
捨不得我為什麼說再見　
能不能收回我說的每一句話
捨不得我為什麼不忘記　
做一條快樂美人魚　
游向幸福的大海裡



昨天和朋友去唱k时, 点起了着首歌... 就想到你. 好想念说! 我, 你的和文一起唱k 的日子, 真恨不得你快点回来, 让我们能再一次的卡拉永远ok!!!

找到一张我们好久以前拍的照片! 好年轻哦!!

Nuffing

hehe, i finally added nuffnang application! yey!! was convinced by sherly to do so, pretty cool. you guys should try out too... i finally get to add something different in my blog..lol..

anyway.. i decided at every of my blog i shall introduce anything new or nice i ate for the week! hehe... what can i say, u all should know i'm have a fetish for food lol!

anyway, this week one will be Nasi Lemak from 6 to 9 Grill and Nasi lemak at Section 17 ( i dunno the exact address, but if it helps, its the same row as food foundry). Its the first non-halal nasi lemak place i ever went to! lol! excited!!! sorry, my muslim frens... i just lurve pork too much! Anyway, i order the Dried salted fish fried with mince pork sambal and mutton curry for my nasi lemak. Angie ordered the cuttle fish and chicken curry. It was pork sambal thing was quite good and i love my mutton curry! After that we had Banana fitters with ice-cream for dessert, which is quite nice i must say. Too bad, we were such glutten, i didnt manage to take the pic of our banana dessert :P... they also serve western food and i heard that the pork ribs here is quite good, will try again :P...

Below is the pic of my food. You have to excuse me for the bad pic quality, my camera spoiled adi so had to use camera phone :(