Friday, September 12, 2008

Scared...

life been ok lately. I'm still waiting for my permit from Taiwan and getting anxious about it. I do hope everything goes well. I got a lot at stake here but again, I try to stay positive and not to stress myself out too much.

I got a lot of bad news last couple of weeks. Not about me, but people around me. Relationship fall apart, people loosing love ones, and all... Kinda got me down a little. I dunno. Relationship are hard i suppose, but am I being naive to believe in happy ever after? We all try so hard everyday to be happy, but along the way, have we even forget what happy means?

Today, I saw some disturbing news on the paper, which got me a bit scared... scared about the future of this country. Scared about the future of the people in this country... Are we heading the right direction? i dunno... I believe changes are good, but are we ready for changes? can the people handle the change?? I really have my doubt.

I had dream last night, that i was on a flight to Taiwan, then i realize i felt something important that I forget to bring along... until now, i still dunno what it was... my heart maybe

I was frustrated with a dear fren last week. I dunno whether was I just merely being unreasonable... but I know is i was furious.. I was very disappointed to at the same time. Maybe she did nothing wrong, maybe I just expect to much. I think I am very demanding towards relationship. I always feel that the one that care the most, bound to be the one that get most hurt. I dunno whether is it right... but I'm just like that.

It was a OK week. I feel like so much undone and yet I feel like I lack the energy. I suppose to be very excited.. but again I'm terrified. I need everything to go well... but hell, i know that the world don't go around the exact way i want it to... I'm scared to loose when I have too much at stake... I'm scared....

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Fairy tales

Long long time ago, in a land far far away, lives a King and a Queen. Together they had this beautiful princess. Oh! what a beauty she was. Those big blue eyes like the colour of the deep blue sea... and the long goldie locks... she was the fairest of all.
They live in this beautiful castle, where they will have Balls, tea parties. It was always filled with music, laughter and love. It was a happy place.
And then, the princess grew up and like every fairy tale, the prince charming came looking for his princess. Riding his beautiful white stallion, with his shinning amour, he swept her feet with his charm. In was out of this world kinda love. They sing, they dance. They kiss, they loved. He brings her gift, flowers.... He was out there to spoil her with all his love... as she was all that in his eyes... and she knows that they are gonna live happily ever after.
But... suddenly.. things start to change. The prince's flower don't shower her anymore. They fight and they fight... They can't seem to find back to good old days... She asked him:"Why? What went wrong?" Prince charming said, " this is not the ending that i want."
So Prince Charming left, with the cobbler's daughter, a peasant, to search for a brand new life. While the princess stayed back in her empty castle with a broken heart, wondering.. What happened to her happily ever after?
Long long time ago, we learn that princesses don't always live happily ever after...