for another better 3 years ahead...

3 years is a long time. its long enough for me to switch from pedestrian to driver; its long enough for me to loose 10 kg ( which never happens), its long enough for me to switch from clarifying to anti-aging (yes,yes age is catching up).

3 years is also long enough for u to almost forget abt someone. Almost.

Then he comes back.

Just when to almost forget abt him, almost forget abt the obsession, almost forget abt the hearth beat, almost forget abt the love. His back. Jay's back.

haha... ok... done with the dramatic entrance. lets talk a little abt the highlights ofthe concert.

The concert was great. Its hard to describe how good it is unless you are there to experience it yourself. You won't know what you miss until you are actually there. i mean words are so limited. How can i describe to you the roar of the crowds, how can i describe to you the sound of every heart beat, How can i describe to you the adrenaline rush of my blood stream, how can i describe to you the fireworks that will blind one eyes, how can i describe to you that sound of angel?

It was one of a kind. His talent again, blew me away, he played the piano like as though there is a machine in his finger! after that it was the drum, the gu zheng, , the guitar.. it was incredible!

He also sang a lot of older songs like 'quiet', 'black humour', 'ninja', those are his signature songs which is also so significant to his fan, cause those are the songs that made us fall in love for him.

There is something abt superstar, they may not be the best singer ever, or the most good looking person, but there is something about them that once they get on the stage, they just captivate you. I was so tired when i reached the venue for the concert and i was telling my fren that i'm afraid that i might just fall a sleep watching him. Boy, was i wrong. the moment the light deem, and the drum hits! I was alive again!

Jay owns his stage, which is why it makes him a spetacular entertainer.... no that's an understatement. He is a superstar. Like Micheal, you may hate him, you call him a wacko, but the moment he got on the stage, you became a believer, you believe that he is one of the greatest superstar alive.

So its ok if you dont like jay. I will love it if you don't like him. Cause it gives me a greater satisfaction when you get blown away by him performing on stage... nothing beats that....

The concert ends at about 11 30pm. He did 3 encores which is really rare in his care. He also didn't say goodbye, but its ok. We all know that this is not goodbye. cause when the time comes, we will meet again...

What an indulgence it is to just lie on

my bed wearing the coolest high heels

and deciding slowly, what to wear that evening.

..or maybe just stay in bed and dream.

- Helena Christensen

I decided

Ok... so its resolution time again. There is a few things i decided to do to make me a better person this year:)

1. I decided that i shall be nicer on the road, but provided that they only put people that know how to drive on the road.

2. I decided that i shall be nicer generally, like to sales person, bank counter people, my neighbour's dog, my brother's girlfriendsssssss, and the list goes on...

3. I decided that i shall hate lesser people this year. I mean, i'm running out of space at my hate list, so i assume its not a good thing. But i also hope less people annoys me, so i can reduce the numbers in my hate list.Help me to help u!

4. I decided that i shall exercise more often, at least 3 tims per week. Yes i will do it! do not doubt me!!!

5. I decided that i shall not seek revenge for every wrong that is done to me. hmm.. this one quite hard... but i'll give all i can!

6. I decided that i shall read less gossip and read more intellectual staff, especially my painful experince in raymond's house warming party, jules, u will know wat am i talking about.

7. I decided that i shall talk less on the phone and meet up more often with my frens. This is simply just because its more cost effective and less radiation.

8. I decided to love my family and friends, a little more this year :P like i could love u all anymore then i alread now!!!

9. ok ok... this one very important! I decided that i shall keep my car n my room clean all the time!!!! dont judge me!! i know about ur dirty secret too!

hehe... so finger cross and lets pray really hard for a better Tania this year! yay!!!

I believe that unicorn exists

i believe...

I believe that the way you place your bed is very important for a good sleep.

I believe that there is a good at every bad.

I believe that you should not play with your food.

I believe that dreams makes life meaningful.

I believe that legging only belongs to a ballerinas, not the fashion industry.

I believe that everything happens for a reason.

I believe that you should never cross a person's leg.

I believe that everyone can love and hate.

I believe that there is something out there.

I believe that what goes around comes around

I believe that one have to loose enough to cherish what they still have.

I believe that if i'm really really good girl, santa will give me a present this year

I believe that if you really really want it, you'll get it.

I believe that breaking glasses brings bad luck.

I believe that there is no dream that is too big, only courage that is too small.

I believe that you are as beautiful as you think you are.

I believe that if you look hard enough, there is an angel beside you.

i believe that you should never turn your head back when you heard your name being called at night.

I believe that if everything fails, i still have you.

I believe that there is someone made especially for me, even if i'll never get to meet him.

I believe that i have nothing if i don't have people to share it with.

I believe that even if there is a divorce rate of 99.9%, marriage is still sacred.

I believe that at every end, there is a new beginning.

I believe that anyone can save the world, by one small step at a time.

Last but not least, i believe there is unicorn. you can laugh all u want. you'll see...one day... €

and then a hero comes along, with the strength to carry on..

angie called me a weirdo today when i asked her which super hero power she will like to have. and i remember not too long ago, she called me a weirdo too when i asked her to keep a letter i wrote, which is for her to read it on my funeral. anyway, lets dont get into that, that topic deserve another blog.

So, back to the what we were talking about. It all start with my obsession with the series 'Heroes'. Gosh, i dont remember when was the last time i was so obsessed abt a show...hmm... OH! it 'Ungly betty", fine its not that long ago then...lol...

So back to Heroes. The show its incredible. u have people flying, people melting, people healing, people reading mind... and the people u thought who it is, is not who it is, and the good guys become the bad guys, the bad guys become the good guys, cute babe, hot hunk and a confused Japanese guy, this is good television to the max!!!

i'm a dreamer, and a little bit naive, so i watch a drama n will think , what if its true??? that is how the question of super power pops. And after giving much thought, i decided to be the invisible man. i mean its cool being the guy which absorbs everyone powers, but it just to complicated for me. come on, i cant even figure out how to upload pics to my stupid blog, what makes u think i can handle so many superpowers at one time!

So i decided i just want one. and i think the invisible man is good. i mean, self healing means live forever. and hell no i dont live forever, i even prepared my eulogy, so go figure. I also thought that the ability to listen to other people thoughts was cool, then i realize, i dont handle the truth every well.. so Nah... then of coz, the ability to move things with thoughts... its just too.. u know.. boring. i mean come on! how lazy can i be!! i just can just grab the cup, rather the move it with my mind, its will well take less then two second u know...

Hmmm... i'm sorry, where were we?? oh... invisible power. Ya.. i think that's a good one. i mean, at first i got all the concept wrong. i thought being invisible mean u have to be naked, cause ur clothes cant be ( stupid Hollow Man) anyway, after watching Heroes, i realized that there is not such need. u can turn things that u touch to be invisible too. cool! So what is the first thing am i gonna do once i get the power?? robbed a bank? peep into my new crush bathing? (again, abt the new crush, that deserve a whole new blog too)

Ok. if u are still reading this, i'm really sorry. its 2 am in the morning. and i just finish watching at least 8 episode of Heroes, and i'm not thinking straight. So anyway, sorry that i have waste ur time like how i had wasted mine.. :P... so go to sleep, or continue doing what u were initially doing, which i think would have been more meaningful then my blog lol. and i promise that my next blog will be better... or at least i'll try...

and for those that have nothing else better to do... lets give Mariah a run for her money... lets sing... "and then a hero comes along, with the strength to carry one, and u cast ur fear aside, and u know u can survive!" ok... no more heroes for me... oh well, at least today :P

give up

OK. I have read quite a numbers of blog, and they are all so pretty and nice... as compare to mine at least. but i tried ... i really did! i went to blog for dummies, yet i still have a hard time understanding it. SO eventually, i concluded that, too bad, u guys just gonna put up with my boring blog layout, until i can find a hero to come and save the day for me.. :P..

Star Awards 25th Drama Anniversary Show

This is dedicated to all my JB friends. Reason being that, only you all will understand the story behind this.

I was watching TCS’s Star Awards 25th Drama Anniversary Show, it brings back so much memories….

Long long time ago (ok, it was 1982, not B.C era)…before there was Astro, before there was Wa lai tai, before that was CSI , before there was ugly betty, before TCS, there was SBC, Singapore Broadcasting Company.

All the eighties baby that grew up in JB, we never watch TV 1, or TV2. We only watch SBC, especially, Channel 8. I tell u, u dunno TV drama until u watch channel 8. All those drama we grew up watching. I remember I watch my first ‘provocative’ bed scene in channel 8, I think it was ‘Bobo’ acted by Zoe Tay. I remember calling ah voon, my childhood fren and tell her faster watch! It’s a sex scene!! ( haha, okla, nothing r-rated. Just two actors kissing n rolling on bed) haha… but that was my very first sex education!

Remember how crazy we were for the “ shuang tian zhi jun’! it was the first show abt gambling n casino, forget abt las vegas!!! We have the better one! We have lee nan xing, all ever so charming ( I met him in person once, n he is so good looking in person) remember Zoe Tay’s short hair! How we were crazy over her, she was an icon to us then.

Remember “feng shen bang”? remember how we were falling head over hell with chow chew meng’s character. He was the most handsome goddess ever!!! And the story broke our heart, take our tears! We will never forget, it thought us love.

Remember the volleyball drama, I started my failed volleyball career because of that ( and yes, I suck badly!)

Oh… and ‘mi li ye’, gosh it scared the hell out of us! Until today, I still feel very uneasy looking at butterflies!

remember 'he ping de tai jia", the story abt world war II. i think its the best show ever, remember those horrible rape scene... the cruelty of the japanese army... it make us thankful for the peace we have now...

How can we ever forget the entire rival between Zoe Tay and Fann Wong! We were pro Zoe Tay, so we hated Fann Wong, n criticized her like mad!!! Haha… so funny… its amazing how we use to care abt things that doesn’t relate to us at all.. we young… everything matters then….

Ah… there is this show abt fireman right? And another abt marine one?? I think shen xing xin was in it. I love him. He is wat u call a man! I think there is very few actor now in TCS ( formerly kwon as SBC”) can live up to them then.

Oh… this remind me, that show stared by li nan xing abt share market one… with that girl…erm… ivy lee!!! Gosh, don’t we just hate her! Her annoying character and bad acting! Her career went down hill since then. But I think she made a come back with a much improved acting.

And how can we forget “family reunion”. That was a good show. With such powerful acting from xie shao kuang, huang bi ren and chen shu cen. And that little boy that acted as xie shao kuang’s son. Wat a great acting, giving Dakota Fenning a run for her money.

U all know that I can go on days, talking abt it. It just too much memories. It was part of growing up. Haha, they call us the tv kids. But seriously, our childhood will not be the same without channel 8.

So I dedicated this to all my JB frens. For sharing the same memory, for all the fun we have discussing abt the dramas. for the late nights thinking whether is zoe tay better or fann wong ( of coz zoe wins hands down). for the tears n the laugh we share... 25 yrs past...we are still here... still loving the same memory.... still dreaming....still believe that hapiness not only happends in drama... we still believe....